Disclaimer: Not mine, but that will not keep me from dreaming.
Reaching for the phone, because I cannot fight it anymore. And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time. Said I would not call but I lost all control and… Guess I would rather hurt than feel nothing at all. And I do not know how I can do without. I just need you now
How can you miss two days, one thing is to lose an hour or two while doing nothing, but unable to recall forty-eight hours was more serious. No one seem to know what happened it had been a Monday the last time he remember waking up and then suddenly was Thursday morning. The whole team woke up in the Hub, unable to remember how they got there that particular morning; it was just like they slept there apparently. Everyone seems to be tired and not in a good mode.
For some reason the Hub was a mess just like any other day, the pets have been feed according to schedule that was weird, since Ianto was the only one in charge of it, and no one else ever have offer to do so, not even jack. He had finished cleaning the vaults and was heading up with coffee in hand.
After denying, he had bought Toshiko flowers which caused Owen to leave first. Gwen followed him shortly after saying that she needed to see if Rhys was all right. Tosh stayed to check further in the computer trying to find out what the hell was going on. Jack goes in to his office; Ianto was debating on going home. For some reason he was tired, his eyes were puffy and red as if he had been crying all night, and a massive headache was starting to pulse in the back of his head. He was leaving to check in the archives, when he heard Jack calling him.
“Did you ah…call?” –Ianto said not really sure if he should go in to the office, Jack seem occupied with a weird artifact.
“Found your diary.” –He waved the notebook at Ianto, with a wicked smile on his face.
“Ah, yes…I have been looking for that.” –He grabbed the book and started walking away, while thinking “maybe if I don’t linger Jack will not attempt anything”
“And for the record, measuring tapes never lie.” –There it was the impersonation of pure evil, named Jack. Even if he had not read it, he just took a quick peek into it when it had suddenly fall open on the floor, he knew that comment had caused more damage than a hot kiss in the middle of the conference room with everybody looking. He knew his Ianto, shy to the bone!
“Fuck.” -Ianto mumble while rolling his eyes, he knew that if he said it at loud Jack would have taken it as an invitation, even thou the thought of Jacks hands running down his naked body caused him to quiver he fought back a moan has he quickly made his exit. Yes, he ran out for he knew the Captain far better than what Jack thought, and especially how persistent he could be, for Jack could turn a reluctant no to a howling yes, he blushed at the thought for he seriously doubted that his body could cope Jacks alluring stare at the moment.
After just a while, Ianto started pondering if a pot of fresh coffee was a good idea. There was only Jack whom had not come out of his office and was being very quiet. Toshiko who was still trying to figured out who had mess with the CCTV, all the while trying to probe that the flowers were indeed from Owen. And lastly that had left him who for the first time in months just wanted to go home, take a shower, and lay down. He was about to pour water in to the old coffee maker when he heard Jack asked Toshiko what the hell she was still doing there, and to finally go home. He put the water down and with the full intention of not looking to eager; he went up into the main room.
“You too Ianto, go home.” –Jack said without even looking at him. It did hurt just a bit, knowing that his presence was not required for the rest of the day, but still he knew if he stayed he could not possible give the performance the Captain was looking for.
“If it is all right with you, Sir.” –Then he turned to Toshiko, now wearing his usual “how may I help you” face. –“I will drop you off.”
Toshiko just nodded feeling the tension emanating from Ianto. She looked at Jack but apparently, the Captain was oblivious of the whole situation. She accepted her coat from Ianto’s hands and saw Jack waving good-bye. Ianto had materialized an umbrella from god knows where which was very convenient since it look like it was raining.
“I wonder how Jack can be so blind sometimes…” –Toshiko said looking out at the window.
“Tell me about it…” –She heard Ianto’s answer and it was only then when she realized she had said it at loud. A blush crept to her face, and she dare to take a peek at Ianto’s who kept his eyes on the road not showing any emotion.
“Ianto… I am sorry I did not mean to…”
“Do not worry…” –He gave her a hurt smile, which made her heart sank at the knowing that her friend was hurting. -“I am used to it… Go on, get in, take a warm shower, and rest, it is not like we get a day off very often.”
“Ahh, two days I still do not get it… Do I… Smell?” –She asked before getting complete out of the car.
“Amazingly you don’t…” –He gave her a more sincere smile.-“Me in the other hand…”
“You always smell good Ianto!” –She got out of the car and gave him a kiss on the cheek thru the window. –“Take care, I will see you tomorrow!”
The solitude of his apartment welcome him, as he thought everything was as he remember leaving when he got out to work on Monday. He did not feel like eating for he was too tired, to eat. He got in the shower and half way thru it, his body started screaming to go to bed. Got out of the shower, and went straight to bed, his body welcoming the feeling of a soft bed. He felt a sleep almost instantly. The ringing of a phone woke him up. For a second he thought he was still dreaming, the phone kept ringing it sound it so far away, his brain finally woke up, maybe it was an emergency. He looked for it only to find it on the floor still inside of his pants. He stared at the caller id, as if he did not know the number calling.
“Jack, is everything OK?” –He sat on the bed waiting to hear the worst.
“I woke you up! Did I wake you up?” –Ianto could hear the nervousness in his voice something so unlike Jack.
“Nah, well just a bit… I was gonna get up any way.” –he could not help to yawn. –“What happened is everything Ok?”
“Yeah, yeah! Is just that… Have you eaten yet?” –A short pause from Jack, as if trying to decide exactly what to say.-“Do you wanna go eat somewhere?”
“Jack, have you notice is after one.” –He smile, wondering where was this heading –“I am sure not much is open this late.”
“Well you are hungry or not?” –Still, the hesitation lingered in the voice of the Captain.
“Well now I am. I will check my fridge and see what I have here.” –Walking towards the kitchen.
“Ianto…” –The Captain soften his voice.
“Open the door.”
“You want me to tell you what I have on my fridge!” –Ianto stop, looking at the fridge.
“No,” -Jack gave a sigh –“Open the front door, let me in.”
Ianto’s heart stop at the idea, he could not help but run to the door. Oh, if the Captain was playing a trick on him he was going to pay. He tried to regain calm, and then open the door.
“What the devil are doing? Have you been out here all this time?” –Jack just gave him a smile for an answer. –“Well.”
“See I do listen to what you say.” –Getting in while carry a plastic bag with food apparently. -“I called ahead. I bought Thai, got you chicken and noodles, thought it was too late to eat spicy curry.” –Ianto just looked at him in disbelief. –“What?”
“Are you drunk?” –Still not moving from the door.
“No… Why would I be drunk?” –Setting the food on the table. Then he gave a sigh. –“I have to be drunk to want to have dinner with you? Come seat and eat.”
“What if I had told you that I ate already?” –Grabbing his noodles from Jack’s hands.
“Well, there is a homeless guy down the street I think he would appreciated my gesture. Unlike others.” –Said the Captain with a boyish grin, which made Ianto smile. –“Ian… Can I ask you a question?”
“OK, but do not judge me if the answer is no.” –Said Ianto in a playful way.
“Is not that kind of question, and I know by experience you always say yes.” –He lean and gave blushing Ianto a chaste kiss on the cheek. –“When I said I came back for you. You did not believe me did you?” –Ianto just looked at him not really knowing what to say, knowing the answer might spoiled the night. –“Just a simple yes or no, Ian.”
“No…” –He said softly almost inaudible, and he regretted immediately.
“May I ask why?” –Jack pulled Ianto’s chin up so he can look on his eyes.
“I think…Self preservation… You left and it hurt… And then when I least expected you came back like nothing.” –His heart was pounding so loud he was afraid Jack would hear it. He pulls his eyes away turning his attention to his food.
“Aren’t you tired of playing this game?” –Ianto looked at him in an asking way. –“Is like we are playing rope, we both pull until one of us has to let go. Aren’t you tired of pulling?”
“Are you…” –His heart pounded even harder.
“Yeah…Why don’t we both let go, take a break at least for one night.” –Grabbing Ianto’s face to have his whole attention. –“Only for tonight can we be just you and me, Ianto and Jack. Not Captain, no Tea-boy, no Torchwood. Would you let me have normality at least for tonight?"
Jack pulled Ianto in a kiss, digging his hands under the soft material of Ianto’s shirt. The kiss went deeper, Jack looking for comfort in his lover’s arms, and Ianto trying to give as much as he could, that was went Ianto realized he was not allowed to answer not to Jack’s question, and nor did he wanted to.
Author’s Note: I know “IT’S SO FLUFFY”